a surprise visit from the panic monster

i haven't felt this way for quite sometime now... 'guess, it's bound to come back every once in a while.... i hate this... it's a combination of feeling like your falling down a dark, bottomless pit where you don't have anything to hold on to in order to stop or delay the fall, having thousands of butterflies being allowed to circle nonstop in your stomach, like you've been running from something or someone you can't see but you know you're being chased, like a pair of thick arms are holding you down- you can't move and also can't breathe, like you're being sucked into a black hole, like you are riding a roller coaster-only this time the part that you're riding flew from the tracks and you're thrown somewhere near the sky.....
in layman's terms, i am having a panic attack.....
brought on by the combination of so many stress factors that i am exposed to right now....
stress from relationships, work, lack of sleep, too much walking, not enough good converation, and posibly too much caffeine and nicotine.....
even the songs that i'm listening to in my player is making me jumpy....
there are no lessons to be discovered here in this entry, no moral of the story....
simply my best effort to alleviate my panic-stricken disposition.... hope this works