never cut what can be untangled

my attitude towards a lot of things have changed a lot as i matured.. i have become less antagonistic and more rational. I always try as much as i can to see things from different angles. Because I believe that there is no one made inherently evil. Evrybody has goodness in them, one way or another, you just have to know how to ignite that spark in them.

i learned yet again last night that there are still some bases that i have to cover. still slacking in the UNDERSTANDING department, still need to learn to be more patient in dealing with overemotional 20 something girls.

what i enjoyed most last time was being with someone that thought i had lost a long time ago. i thought that the "friendship" was way over. surprisingly, it was the first time that i saw him to be really having a good time, upping up the notch, so to speak. I was so happy to see him being happy with us, genuinely happy...

our friendship was close to extinct about a month ago, barely even acknowledging each other's presence. not even a slight tip of the head. both of us nursing a different set of hurtful prejudice against each other. not even bothering to clear the air.

but good comes to those who wait. timing is everything. and it was as if a vacuum had sucked out all the negativity between the two of us. Right now,looking at our friendship from where it is right now, i can say that i wouldn't allow something like that to happen again. I ain't gonna let pride get in the way. I have too much to loose.... a treasured friend.

one step at a time by jordin sparks

"it's gonna happen when it's supposed to happen..."
i think that if there's ultimately one thing in this world that i have been taught so much of, that is learning to wait....
nothing good can ever come from something that was forced or prematurely acquired... it doesn't matter if were talking about your favorite dish, your newest masterpiece or your partner's feelings... everything must be made with care and all in good time...
no reason is great enough to rush something as important as life..
sometimes, i forget.. i commit the unforgivable deed of forcing what i want... and in the end, I am the one shaking my head in dismay, either from embarassment, guilt or more often than not, hurt..
we are the ones who get hurt the most when we force ourselves on things that are not supposed to be ours at that particular point in time.. we get hurt by disappointment, usually....
if you think waiting sucks, wait till you fall flat on your face with embarassment when your claiming something you can't have but what you thought was yours all along.
waiting should also walk hand in hand with a good attitude...
wait-ers who tap their foot on the floor and watch the time of the clock tick by, get more frustrated by the minute..
there are still so many things that can keep you happy while your waiting. it is not as if your life is hinged on that particular event...
i see a lot of my friends, hoping with weary eyes, just waiting for one event that they think can make them happy...
but no matter how much i talk about patience, they will not learn how to wait until they have been taught by LIFE itself... i just wish there were more things that i can do to lessen their sadness...