the coming of a conclusion...

Almost three months ago, I was sitting in this exact table...cramming to finish my e-cornell requirements. And someone was making sure i don't sleep through it. Despite being physically apart, he made sure I felt his presence...

But then he's gone now. just. like. that.

And I guess I allowed my self to be in limbo for quite a while. Just taking all in. Refusing to grow up because I know that this isn't a simple douchebaggery episode.

And as I was flipping the pages of my spiral, i chanced upon two entries that I scribbled while I was with him...


Here goes...


thursday.
At wit's end
Not knowing where this is gonna lead me
If this is yet another dark end
or another cliff.

To say that i'm scared like hell. Not even.
Acting as if my heart is already whole
As if nothing happened short of three months ago
I'm not yet even over the Popoy timeline
Yet here I am, risking my heart again
Trippin' over my feet to offer it to a stranger
Hoping against hope that things will be
different this time around.

Is it a sin to have too much optimism
or
Is it a sin to having too much stupid

there were moments where I stop myself in midway
Finding myself in the same situation
Uncanny
Only this time around, the characters are different
The house- on the other side of the city

When will I ever learn??

friday.
I wanna be with you
Such a beautiful morning seems like a waste
if spent apart from you

Here I go again
third gearing on us.
dangit.


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