spinning round and round

yes, i did it.
finally did the unthinkable.
went head on and plunged to the deep, deep end of the pond.

no regrets, really.
had the best weekend of my life.
did not overthink, for the first time.
blissful
the smile stayed on my lips until the wee hours of the morning, even in my sleep.

so... this is what it felt like to be happy... really, truly happy..

what i felt at that time was not forced nor imagined..

the aftershocks- out of this world
makes my head spin non-stop day in and day out

a roller coaster ride over and over again
i don't know if im up for the whole shenanigan..

one minute he's by my side
gone the next
too confusing..

it's like walking on a hanging bridge that just stretches way too long ahead of me
makes my knees wooble continuously...

im soo too old for this...