my fave...

short of one month to say that i waited for three years to finally have the talk that i got.. and been wanting.. well, it wasn't loaded with the fireworks neither the sugar coating, which made it just great for me..
all the truth (or so I wanted to believe) strippou from pretensions and assumptions, no more facade, no more needing a third eye or sixth sense.. everything delivered just as it was in reality... every truth in this world comes with an unavoidable dose of sourness with it, something to bite you with and put you back to your rightful place in the real world.
yes, the terms were simple. the feeling is mutual. but no nothing. no expectations, no duties, no proclamations of anything akin to that L world. no affirmations, no sweet nothings, no dopey-eyed looks and definitely, NO COMMITMENTS. no, nothing....
the ball is and will always be in my hands, in my court, on my terms...
and yet, i can't get rid of the feeling of being deflated after all the talks, somewhat melancholy...
similar to a child, gloomily waiting by the window panes... looking out through thr front yard, up to the front gate, but thoughts going way beyond the world that her vision couldn't reach...

yep, that's exctly what im feeling right now..
how this new chapter should unfold, i have no idea....